MICHAEL JACKSON
I know everyone and they mama has already heard.  So I don't have to announce it.  I do want to say I will miss Mike.  Even through all of his trials and speculations and his ghoulish like appearance; I have enjoyed his music, his dancing and him doing what he did.  Trip this though God, I thought ya boi was in prime condition.  All that dancing and moon walking and spinning and shit...that takes some athletic type skill.  Most cats lungs ain't built to even walk up a flight of stairs.  Appearance aint everything. None the less...RIP Mike Jackson...sending you positive energy on your journey god!

TALKING SHIT
This is going into our second month of colon cleansing.  We saw Colonix online read about it and all the testimonials and decided we needed to clean our colons.  So last month in April we copped like $160+ to purchase 2 boxes of Colonix and we bought some of that Flora Protect.  The wife and I haven't talked so much about shittin' until we started this program.  I have noticed improvements in my bathroom time and what is coming out of me...sometimes so much nastiness...I begin to think...damn god!  Ya boi is full of shit!

Our First Shipment

It sux though when on route and I gotta go shit.  I go looking through 7-11's and port-o-potties hoping I don't release in my clothes.  It don't happen though cuz the fiber based substance doesn't go hard on your stomach...it comes easy and you have plenty of time to go.  I ignored it one day on my route and was like nawwwww man I will go when I get these next 6 containers up and as I was pushing a can....a pain hit my stomach.  I was like ohhhh hell nawwww....I got to walking like a cowboy all bow legged and trying to squeeze in my gut...I was like noooooo not now.  I said fuck it..and let them folks garbage containers in the middle of the parking lot and got in my truck and smashed out.  Looking for the nearest restroom...and went I got there...Woooooossssshhhhhh!  Man I felt so light I thought I was gonna fly away off that toilet bump my head on the light and still keep going....plus I hate public restrooms.  Yet when nature calls..I answer.

In June we got a special deal from the company.  Toxinout and Colonix...together for $99.  So of course we get 2 boxes...for a total of $200.00.  Let me tell you about this Toxinout.  When we piss...it is a galatic green type color.  Man I hope we are not fools and are getting our monies worth.  I do feel a little better though, maybe its all in my mind or in the toilet!

 DEAD DRYER
After pulling that muthafucka up 4 flights of stairs, struggling to get it in here and hooked up without scuffs on the floor or walls...do you know this bitch ain't drying worth shit.  On my wifes day off we had our all star maintenance crew come in and hook up their dryer and what do you know...their dryer gets hot and works fine.  

Maybe we damaged the heating coil as we lugged it up the stairs.  Or maybe cuz its like 3 years old...that is its life expectancy.  So we go out in the rain today and dump that bitch in the dumpster and we can rent one from the community for $15 a month.  We thought about buying another one...but decided not to.  When we move it is one less item to carry.  Hopefully we will be moving into our dream home and then we will buy a dryer but until then $15/mo it is.  Punk ass appliances.

A TRANSFORMATION
If you have been reading this blog then you know we just moved.  Gut wrenching, muscle pulling, breath losing moving.  After unloading multiple trips of boxes, books and things...all we wanted to do was relax before making another trip.

I let my appearance drag down too so far as facial hair and hair cuttery!  I was a beastly like critter but I got off my arse yesterday and aligned my clippers like Alex Campbell showed in his video.  Well not exactly like he showed in the video because I went off of memory of watching him do it like 3 months ago...so my fade was weak.  Hey did I mention that moving took alot out of me.

(Beastly Type Critter)

(The fade is whack but my line is improving)

(The dentist told us about them electric toothbrushes and the wife got us some)

I hate where I got my first Tattoo placed; I should of gotten it placed further up on the bicep.  I was in my early twenties at the time and wasn't thinking to clearly. I am still contemplating getting that second one, third one and forth one.  I don't want to mark up my body though walking around like a billboard of my thoughts.

(Tattoo in the wrong place...it goes into the fold of my arm)

(I was thinking of getting a tattoo in Nuwaupic saying Nuwaupian right here)

I am thinking about re instituting my nose ring.  I don't wear it to try and look cute there is reason behind this that I accepted back in the early 90's.  We were Ansaars.  Ansaaruallah (Aiders of Allah) we got our right side nose pierced with a gold circular ring that represented 360° of knowledge.  So in rememberance and to reconnect back with that heritage I put it in today.  Being I no longer dress in a Jaliybiyaa or Takkiya...it might not be so wise to do so.  I look like an old dude trying to recapture his youth.

(S.O.G.L for those that know)

(Said nose ring)

(Nose Ring Inserted)

(Rugged face but I dig that look)

MY HELPER

(Mastering the art of sleeping)

It was going on 10:30 yesterday morning and my 3 year old was still asleep.  I was delighted in a sense because I could get stuff done without his millions of questions and talky mouth.  On the flip side I don't like encouraging laziness.  It disgusts me.  I overstand when you have done something like ummmmmmm "moving".  Which takes alot  out of you but to just sleep for like 15 hours cuz u can...nawwww man that is not good.  I will not tolerate it from my son when he is growing older either.  As Nuwaubians we were groomed to always give 100% and more of whatever we are doing.  We got the job done and did not let fatigue be the ruling factor.  It's a habit I need to put into his character young; focus on your goals and get out of bed every morning and get things accomplished.

Once he is up he becomes active.  He truly has a helping nature.  We go to get my pops fathers day gift out of storage and he insists that he pushes the cart which contains our Chevys two back seats, my work boots and gloves into the elevator and to the storage.  After we get pops gift he takes the cart back into the elevator and parks it back in its original spot.  I was happy needless to say; he took initiative.  One of our nuwaubian sayings "Tell yourself what to do first, that way no one else has to".

(Taking the cart onto the elevator)

(resting on the cart from all his pushing and pulling)

(Placing the cart back in its proper place)

PRE FATHERS DAY
My sister calls me all sickly sounding (She is getting over a cold) and tells me it is a good day to bring pops fathers day gift over to his house.  We were fortunate to have it because we have an Uplander which is like a van/suv so we get to haul it.  After our move we put it in storage until this day came.  It was divided up between the 4 of us my wife, me and my two sisters.

We decided on a grill because he loves to grill.  He has the old school charcoal one and he kicks ass on that grill.  I don't know if the new propane tank one will be a better.  You know the saying don't mess with perfection.  We will see when he starts cooking on it.

(Pops and his new grill)

After we let him go witness it I actually think he was touched.  He thanked us all and we had to catch out because we had grocery shopping to do.

MOVED
I went on vacation last week.  I just knew I was gonna be laxin' and kicking back.  Oh hell naw!  We moved!  Back breaking, stair climbing, funky pits and feet, exhaustion to the 10th degree type moving.  Carrying a washing machine up 4 flights of stairs is not the business.  Hats off to professional movers cuz this sux.  Everything was moved by Wednesday of this past week but we have stuff scattered all through out the apartment.  We are too tired to figure out where everything goes.

(Being on Top floor has its benefits especially if you like Natures Art)

Thursday mid day I was standing out on my balcony (a plus) and like the bossmack topsoil I breathed this fresh Colorado air and to my surprise in the parking lot I see a brotha from a distance that resembles Suge Knight in so far as the beard and a bald head.  He is yelling something to these 3 hispanic girls who were walking fast away from him up into their stair well.  Curious to what was going on I see a smaller framed but fit hispanic guy come from the stairwell in a red cap and wife beater.  He was walking fast and walked right passed dude but they exchanged eye contact.  The dude gets into a an old school red chevy on 24's and moves his car.  As he gets out Suge dude has his hands in the air like whats up then?  Nothing happened because more hispanics came out and they squashed what ever beef happened because they talked and gave pounds.  I am like awwww shit.  The old saying is true you can take a nigga out the hood but you can't take the hood out of a nigga.  My guess is that young dude in the red chevy parked in homeboys paid for parking space.  On my second day here it happened to me too.  I pay $35 a month for a garage space...and some muthafucka is gonna park their car in my space.  Oh nawww...they must be trippin'...straight to the office like a tattle tale...they need to move their car.  I hope it don't become a regular thing cuz I know how folks get to trippin' when you have their car towed.  Can you say keyed, broken windows and flat tires?

I hope this complex stays higher class...cuz I didn't move out the bellos to have to fade with a cat in some underground parking garage.  I am trying to get my mind back to that God mind and get on my grind.  All them extra added distractions; need to be over with.

(A Well Manicured Lawn Speaks Volumes)

PHOTOGRAPHY
About 6 months back I met ol' girl at a function where our personal friend/ day care owner was throwing a little celebration for the opening of her new center.  I call her ol' girl because I cannot remember her name but she slightly resembles Nia Long in the face...and I say slightly, but she was there with SLR camera around her neck.  Click, Click snapping pictures was her thing.  We got into a small conversation about her and her profession.  She told me about this photography course online that she is doing and I must say it sparked my curiosity.  

Over the many months of working at Waste Management I thought about photography.  I thought more along the lines as of how can I earn them $$$ doing something I love.  A foot fetish site?  A photo book series type thing?  Stock Photos Disks?  Wedding photographer...I don't really know but after reviewing the site, reading reviews I decided I don't have money to go finish back at the Art Institute...I already owe them $40,000 + in loans so I did it, I took that leap and signed up with NYIP.   I signed up for the course to becoming a professional photographer. $45.00 a month ain't bad and I already got Unit 1 in the mail...from what I have read and listened to so far...they have some knowledge that I was unaware of when taking pictures.  I am commited to seeing this thing through because my first venture into the animation/cartoon realm is not paying off for me.  It is very exhausting work to do this after coming home working 12-15 hour days doing physically hard manual labor.  You all will be getting samples of my photography progress as I progress.

THE NATION
I am a Nuwaubian in heart in case you did not know.  After the arrest of our Master Teacher Dr. Malachai Z. York my countenance went south.  I moved further away from the masonic lodge, the sacred societies, the studying and disciplines.  Without knowing it I allowed myself to become weak, doubting and confused.  Dr. York is like a father to me because of the personal things he has helped me through and for the sacrifices he has given to this Nation to set the record straight and uplift us from just being lowly negroes to hard working and passionate Gods.  I have given 14 + years to the cause and to regress back into being a lowly negro, lazy, fickle, argumentative, petty, weak feels out of place.  It feels wrong.  I know what I am to do to raise back to that active like God like state but it is difficult but it can be done and I am going to do it.  This is not a day and time to where being an in-divide-you all is right thinking.  We need each other...nubian man and woman!  We have these nubian seeds out here lost and damn near ignorant to what is going on.  That New World Order is a reality...they are trying to really make us dependant on Government.  We all better start that inner war with ourselves, do not let that beast like lowly nature be the dominant force in you.  Look at the weather, look at the food, look at the knowledge and you have to ask yourself what is really happening?  What are they not telling me?

(We get this in the Summer time?)

For the record...Yes I know Dr. York is innocent.  Anyone of you who gets out here to try and raise your people without being punked by government, white folks in your shit or shaping your agenda...watch what they will do to you.  If they can't kill you physically they will get you mentally.  The sad part about it...it wasn't white folk who did the deed nor government...even though they played their part...it was his own blood and disgruntled women!  All supposed to be nubian...remember the devil ain't just white...that is a con...the devil is all colors and all things.  Sent to disrupt your meaning of peace!

Peace!

Plaque-xico
I have been going to the dentist for like the last 3 months.  I had most of the work done in March & April...May was the last of the serious work.  Ya boi had 11 cavities.  They were in the molar regions of my teeth and small ones between the back teeth.  So I had to schedule 4 separate visits to get the cavities drilled out and filled with fillings!  That shit hurt and then when they were done I got to walk around with numb mouth.  The price of neglect and ignorance is not cheap!  It was over a thousand dollars to get those feelings and the local numbing.  Thanks to insurance I only had to pay $55 per visit. 

(Actual Tools Used on my Teeth)

I go in for my cleaning this Saturday and as I feel the dentist scrape; I thought my teeth were breaking or one was going to come out as she did this. No it was the crusted on plaque below my gum line.   I squirmed and gripped the chair tight; especially when she was working on that back molar, she went under the gumline.  I tasted blood and she would suck it up in that little vacuum hose.  After it was all said and done she gave me a toothbrush and some floss!  I felt like a little kid.  The receptionist at the front desk stated " Your teeth are so white and healthy looking."  Ha!  Looks that way huh?...but what you see is not what you know.  If she had known all the yuckness that laid back in the dark places of my mouth she wouldn't be saying that.  Its better to brush and floss then to let that shit build up and then let the dentist get into work...its expensive plus it hurts.

(One of my dentist writing down the work she did)

FADE MASTERS
For some time I have been into cutting my own hair and my children.  I begin to realize my current clippers sucked.  I would buy them WAHL Wal-Mart joints.  When trying to fade or get a nice even cut they sucked ass.  I think those clippers are designed for white folks.  Where is Alex???  I need hair cutting info lol.  I get online and reviewing Alex Campbells site again...I look at his approval for quality equipment.  I did not buy the Osters111 because of the price...they did have the Andis Masters...but they also had some Andis Masters called FADE Masters. So I asked the clerk behind the counter about the clippers.  I remember thinking that home boy behind the counter looked like a blood. He was flamed up!  He had on his red cap, red shirt and tatted up all over his forearms.  I didn't pay that no mind...I chopped it up with homeboy about the clippers.  They didn't have a huge selection of shit but this is supposed to be the biggest beauty supply warehouse in the world?  So he only had two boxes of each clippers, Osters 76, Osters speed, Andis Masters and Fade Masters and other brands.  I chose the Fade Masters.

(Beauty Supply Warehouse off of 6th and Potomac)

The wife saw them a little later that day and was like "They looked used".  I was like naw it was cuz we kept handling them while I was trying to make up my mind.  Later on that day I get home; plug them in and as I moved the blade up and down I notice little specs of hair.  Huh?  I open the bottle of Andis oil and it was already open too.  I am like hell naw they charged me $112 for some used ass clippers.  "The wife was like take em back."  Luckily I listened to her they have a 24 hour return policy.  Damn!  Good thing I didnt  wait for next Saturday to use them.  The wife took them back and they tried to get her to exchange them for some masters...I was like naw, just get the money back.  See when you fuck up one time you lose credibility.  You heard the saying one apple spoils the whole bunch...well one set of clippers spoiled everything in that store for me.  I don't trust their judgement, they are sneaky and the sad fact is most of the employees are black!  I went to the smaller beauty supply by my house where the asians run it and they had better customer service and brand new clippers.  Come on brothers and sisters we got to be better towards one another.

DENVER THOUGHTS
As I was driving down E-470 which is a toll highway, I looked over to the West and seen the mountains and the different shaded blue skies.  It brought a little feeling of satisfaction and relief over me.  I was so amped about getting out of Colorado to move to back to the South but Colorado ain't bad at all.

I discovered its more about the quality of living that determines your state of mind about a thing.  If you are poor but striving to be rich, no good friends or family around, and life is a struggle you will detest where you are at.  The moment you go somewhere else and shit gets to poppin!  You are like mannnn i love x, y and z.

Denver is a beautiful place and my family is wonderful!

(Not the picture I seen today..this is an old one heading west...but I feel close to the sky)

New Dwelling
The property we were renting is being foreclosed on.  I know ya'll remember me saying that some time ago.  So we got off our asses and started looking for places to move to because Texas is not a wise move as of yet.  We chose apartments this time.  Not because we cannot afford another house but we are not placing ourselves in another situation to where the owner of the rented property is not paying the mortgage and we end up out on our asses.  

Moving is a pain in the ass.  We are thinking of hiring movers but that may be an extra expense we don't need.  The place we found is great.  Luxury apartments, we got a fantastic view and are on the top floor.  Our rent is $1,072 a month it is a little pricey but they are brand new, no one has occupied our apartment before and it has a really good positive energy there.  So we are taking it.  I am damn sure happy about it because I don't have to cut grass no more.  Ha!  We are supposed to sign the lease this weekend.

(My son in our new kitchen)

SunBlock
My wife is always concerned about my health and well being, I am greatful for that.  I work outside and I am exposed to the sun daily.  I was exposed one day for a long duration of time and I actually got sun burned!   WTF???  I have never gotten sun burned before.  My forearm was tender and when I showered that shit stung.  A week later my skin started peeling!  I thought I was ashy until I examined closer and I was peeling.  This was all very new to me...so I went and bought a $7 bottle of Coppertone.  I didn't know black people needed sunblock...go figure?

New Tattoo
I am not sure I am really going to get a tattoo.  Ya boi is a bitch when it comes to that digging needle pain.  My first tat I damn near flew out the chair.  I was skinnier then so maybe that had something to do with it, cuz I don't feel pain like I used to.  I have an Ankh Ideal in mind.  The ankh is the key to life.  So within in the design it will spell out my wifes name, my daughter and my 3 year old son with an inverted heart for the love of the creator.  Needless to say they are my life.  I live for them.  I am going to get it placed on my forearm if I can muster the strength to do it.  I have to design it though.

Natural Sleep Aide
I know some folks out there complain about not getting sound sleep.  Well I got some super duper sound sleep and so did my wife.  The natural aide is "FUCKIN'!"  We were both tired but wanted to do something.  We did our business and a half and hour later slobber was pouring out the side of my mouth as I lay in a deep hibernation.  I swore the alarm clock went off 3 times but I didn't hear it because the result of fuckin' while you are already exhausted puts you out quicker than Benadryl.

?Plans
A plan was made to send the stepdaughter away to her father in Minnesota.  It was discussed between the wife and him that he would come down and pick her up.  That was supposed to be the plan.

The stepdaughter informs me today that we are going to have to make arrangements with her father to fly her down there.  WTF???  Folks kill me out here; how they try and force their ways of doing things upon us.  Punks ain't raised around these parts...we will get it straight.  All niggas got to do is stick to the plan.  Make your word your bond.

Boss Mack Shirt
I have been slacking on these blog posts so of course yall don't know that I ordered a bossmack topsoil authentic tee !  I also got the wife one...she likes them.  My lil ol 3 year old wants one...but bossmack dont make kid tees.  I love this shirt man.  The quality is tight and folks be staring hardcore when I come through..they are diggin' on this shirt man. 

A Habitual Liar
Hungry for lemon pepper wings my wife goes to wing stop.  She brings home enough for everyone.  The kids will sit at the table and eat theirs while the wife and I go up stairs.  Carrying my box of wings is my step daughter.  She does not think I am looking at her and she opens the box and puts her face in it and sniffs heavily.  Disgusted and angry I ask her why did she open the box and sniff my wings.  

"I didn't" she says with a straight face.  "You did too"..I said. "I just watched you."  "I smelled them but I uh, uh"...*Her trying to make up her story.  The wife interrupts and tells her no body likes a liar and she retorts right back to saying she didn't sniff the wings.  This is not the first time this has happened it is a regular thing.  We can be standing there right beside her and she will say she didn't do something we just witnessed her do.  

Truthfully it is scary because she does it with out an inkling of remorse.  Can you say "Trust?"  I have none for her.  I do not trust anything she says as valid.  I will  have to look into everything she tells me now.  My wife thinks it may be hereditary.  She says her father is a liar.

MESSICANS
"Stopped at a light and had a fit cuz a messican almost wrecked my shit"...Eazy-E (8-ball)

I laughed as I was listening to my Ipod and he said Mess-ican.  My stepmom is from Texas and she says Mess-icans too.  They totally ignore the X in Mexicans. I don't know why that is sooo funny to me.  She will get mad at something a Mexican did and she will be like them damn Messicans.

 I met a white guy on my route today and as we were chopping it up about the Nuggets and Orlando he looked over to his trash enclosure.  With a sigh he let out a negative comment.  "They are just fuckin' nasty, they just throw this shit anywhere". I asked was he talking about people just randomly driving by he said "No, Its them damned Mess-icans".

Mechanic Wisdom
My work truck got stripped of its air lines today while I was dumping my truck.  I had to radio in for a mechanic to come out and fix my truck so I can take it back in and go home.  He was a thin white male age 46.  We talked as he worked on the air lines and the topic of jobs and careers came up.  I told him it is sad that I am almost 36 and still don't have a career; just a job.

He tells me there is nothing wrong with having a job.  A job puts food on the table and takes care of bills.  A career takes time and effort to become rewarding.  Be greatful for a job because many people who had careers are now looking for jobs.  Deep!

The wife and I have been on this colon cleanse regimen starting in May.  During the day it requires us to drink 8-8oz. glasses of water.  So we have been purchasing the 16oz bottles of Aquafina in a 20 pack from Wal-Marts. 

I am grocery shopping this Saturday and as I pull onto the aisle where the water is there sits an empty wooden pallet where the 20pack bottles of Aquafina use to be.  I look left and then right I look up and wonder "WTF?"  For over 2 years I have been coming here to this grocery store and they have never been completely empty of "Aquafina" water.  So a little irritated I place my hands on the buggy bar and trudge along to the next aisle for the next item.

After getting my dental appointment over with I was close to Super K-Mart.  I don't like K-Mart but it was closer to where I was and we needed the water and some battery operated tooth brushes for the kids.  So I went in and a few aisles down they had 20pack Aquafina water stacked in a pyramid with a sign saying " On Sale 20pk for $3.99".  I copped to 2 packs and now we got 40 bottles of water.  I am satisfied and went on to have a great day.

A Life Lesson:
You can be commited to someone or something and fall into a routine of using that person or thing to fulfill your needs.  Being creatures of habit God we do things without much thought behind it.  We rarely anticipate what if that thing no longer fulfills our desire.  The fact is we will go somewhere else to get what we feel we really need.  We will not wait long periods of time for that which we feel we need.  As in case of the water...if a sales clerk came and said we should have some in next week try back then do you think I would have said Ok see you next Saturday!  I wouldn't because that puts my regimen on hold, that slows down what I am trying to accomplish waiting on them to do what they are supposed to be doing in the first place.

If you are a partner in a relationship and you hold out on the fellatio or cunnilingus in time there are other stores out here that will provide your partner with that 20pk of water.  If you are on a job and you are not doing what you are being payed for don't worry there are other stores out there that will sell that 20 pack of water for cheaper and with higher pyramid stacks. You don't have time for your family?  Some other man or woman does.

Life waits for no body.  It is constantly changing.  What you may not be willing to offer to yourself, your family and your friends do not worry because someone else out there will.  We all have a part to play...know your part God and do your best to keep that water in stock and on the shelves.  A person may still be commited to you or a thing as I am still highly loyal to Wal-Marts but if they ain't giving me what I need I will go get it from someone else even if I don't like her very much "K-Marts".

Peace!